New profession, new workplace and new life!!!!!!!

Assalammualaikum. It's 2131 hours. Yes if you still like me thinking 2131 hours is what time, then we same. Since I worked at new workplace, I have to adapt use the word "Hours" if we want to said time. I know you guys must be wondering why I have to use the word "Hours". Why not a.m. or p.m.?. The answer is now I just change my job where I work with college and it is in Maritime Industry. Yes, in Maritime Industry they used the word "Hours" instead of a.m. and p.m. So, when other Lectures told me to meet them at 1300 Hours, then I have to calculate in my brain at what time is that. Hahaha...I'm still new and still learning. 

19 September 2016 is the first day I started work at one of the maritime college in Johor Bahru as a "Lecturer". Yeah I don't have any teaching experienced neither work in maritime industry. So many mixed feeling I got here. And it's also one of the hardest decision I had made in my life. I mean to resign my current job as an Account Assistant, which is the only job I've been doing since I graduated, 1 year and 8 months at Giant and 1 year 9 months at Season. And to be very honest I am not an Account student but that's only the job that I know. I did many 'Solat Istikharah' asking Allah for the answer. Should I maintain my current job or should I move to try something new in my life?. Alhamdulilah, Allah show me something and here I am try something new in my life. I know when I took this new job and my life gonna change totally like 100%. I have to always read, have to always ask senior, have to always not "kedekut" ilmu and many more. 

So many things I have to sacrificed when I received this new job. I have to wake up very early in the morning, 0545 Hours. Go to work at 0700 Hours, and it took almost 40 minutes to office and 1 hour distance back from work to home. Yes and every day I spent like almost 1 hours 40 minutes on the road to go to office. I always asked myself is it really true I want to work in this education line. Being a Teacher or Lecturer is actually one of my ambition but I don't give so much hope into that because I thought I am not qualified. I interviewed this job 3 months ago and they don't call me to give the answer until in the beginning of August 2016, they said I passed. I was like not so happy but at the same time I just want to ask them why they choose me. My interviewed and mock teaching was terribly bad. Really bad. Who knows my rezeki, Allah give me maybe to change my life into better. I ask the college to give me some times like about 5 days for me to think whether I want to accept the offer or not. I am not confidence with myself. I don't think I can teach. Being a Teacher is one of amazing job. But I don't think myself is amazing. My English is so bad. I don't talk so much, I am introvert. So many worries in my head now. But I am the person who wants to try something new in my life because my motto is "I live like there is no tomorrow". 

I make my new job as the started for my new experienced. I met so many high education peoples here. Some of them really help us so much, praised us, treat us like their children. But there are some who said "You don't have any experienced in Maritime and you really need to practice your English". Aku tgk lecturer tu kecik besor je, sabar Nadiah, ujian sume tu. So being there, you just have to "pekakan telinga" and just let them go away. Don't stress yourself with things like that. It's one of the challenges. So basically today is my 4th day at my new workplace and so far I can said I began to like my new career now. I know I am not applicable to be a Lecturer but I do hope peoples can give me hope and times and I will make sure you will be proud of me. This is what I promise to myself. And I also promise to stay in this college as many years as I can. I hope too. InsyaAllah. 

So, that's for today. Later we talk again ok. (Sorry my English is so bad). Thank you for drop by and read my bebelan. 

"KAHWIN"

It's been really a very long time no update anything here in this blog. Firstly I made this blog sebab dulu one of the course that I take during my MBA ada course Information Technology and my lecturer want us to make a blog as one of our course assignment and he will grade mark for our blog. And Alhamdulillah I finished my MBA 2 years a go not with so flying colors but rase syukur because all pass and my blog got grade B...haha...syukur. Even blog ni just buat for assignment but sekarang this blog I decided to make it as my personal blog.

Well you already see the tittle post of my entry today, "KAHWIN". Ok, to be very honest, what is the meaning of "KAHWIN" or "Marriage"?. Besar maksudnye. Not just in a piece of paper. I will turn 30 this year in November later but still single and I can said available also. Yes being 30 and available is really hard today. Peoples around me keep asking "Bila nak kawin? umur dah lanjut....takkan langsung tak pikir pasal kawin?"...... kalau la mereka2 yang tanya soalan2 mcm tu tahu perasaan aku....memang sabar aje la. If possible like today jugak I want to "Kahwin". Yes I do also want to have my own family and having someone I love and can share our happy moments together. Tapi belum ada rezeki. Allah maha mengetahui. Allah maha besar. Dia lagi tahu nasib aku dari manusia2 di luar sana yang hanya tahu tanya saja soalan2 begitu.

Kahwin is not just about "Akad" between man and women and it is not just about the word "Sah". Kahwin is just too abroad the meaning behind it. Terlalu besar and terlalu berat sangat maksud "Kahwin". Tapi manusia semua tak tahu betapa besar tanggungjawab nak di pikul bila kite sudah sah menjadi milik seorang lelaki bernama "Suami". I have my own prinsip kenapa still sekarang I am not married. Yea betul saya sedang kumpul duit ke arah perkahwinan also. Yela kalu dah kawin takkan nak harap dekat husband sorang je..kesian die. Plus saya pikir banyak sangat perkara bila dah kawin nanti nak stay mana? Takkan dah kawin still takda rumah sendiri ? then dah kawin dah beranak pinak still menumpang rumah mak ayah..rumah mak mertua. Lepastu dah kawin nanti ada anak nak bagi anak makan apa? pampers die susu die sume tu...takkan nak bergantung duit suami saja. Yea memang betul itu tanggungjawab suami tapi isteri pun kena membantu jugak.

Ramai kawan2 saya dah kawin beranak pinak and mereka merungut duit mereka still tak cukup sebab belanja hidup sekarang terlalu tinggi. Yea saya mengaku saya takut benda itu akan terjadi pada saya. Sebab itu dari sekarang saya kena mula start slow2 kumpul duit untuk mase depan kami nanti, untuk anak2, untuk kebaikan rumah tangga kami nanti.

Memang sekarang saya akui sangat cemburu dengan kawan2 office pergi beraya masing2 bawak bakal tunang la,, bakal boyfren la...bakal suami la...saya? seorang diri bawak bakal diri sendiri ini ha... sedih tau tengok orang lain ada pasangan tapi tidak saya. Tapi saya percaya Allah maha besar and Allah sudah cipta pasangan untuk saya cume "orangnye" belum muncul lagi. Saya selalu sentiasa berdoa selepas solat supaya Allah kurniakan jodoh untuk saya,jodoh yang baik2 and beriman and yang penting Islam and bole menjadi "Imam" saya. Saya berharap makcik2 pakcik2 nenek2 atuk2 kawan2 di luar sana janganla selalu bertanya soalan "Bila nak kahwin" dengan saya sebab saya sendiri pun tak tahu bile. Saya hanya mampu menjawab "InsyaAllah".

Allah maha besar, maha mengetahui. InsyaAllah saya percaya Allah mendengar semuar ini. Dengan ini saya kena perbetulkan niat untuk mendiri kan rumah tangga kerana apa. Setiap manusia yang di cipta di dunia ini ada pasangannaya Allah cipta kan. Cume masa sahaja menentukan bila kami akan bersatu. InsyaAllah. Sekian. Terima Kasih. Thank you Allah.